Today on Ms. O’s show, she’s giving the hookup to lots of phenomenal people and I can’t help but shed a few tears and the fabulousness of it all. Today my decision after my morning meditation was to just give up trying to figure it out myself and be a request for contribution.

I am so clear none of these people on the show would be getting ANY of this if they did not make their request known. I was talking with my sister yesterday about the difference between me and my friend Versandra is her willingness to ask/share what she wants and needs.

It’s not that I won’t accept assistance, but I don’t make it a practice to ask for it. As I went through the introductions leader program this past fall/winter, I got present to that. Now it’s about reminding myself about that lesson everyday and remembering to share what I am up AND how I could use assistance to make it happen.

Most recently I had to see that I had not gotten it down yet with this triathlon. I simply did not share with EVERYONE I know what I was up to and request that they contribute. As a result, I fell short of my fundraising goals when I really didn’t have to (Please note I did not withdraw from the event b/c of the money, I just have not been nor plan to train for it in time for the June 13th event).

I struggle with wanting to balance requesting with begging. I don’t want to be seen as the person who is always asking for something. I remember when I was promoting Exoticise and the classes at the studio and an acquaintance said to me “You’re always selling something” I was taken aback and then started to question how I occurred to the world. Her remark was true, I am always up to something AND I always share it with people I meet. It cost money to produce the activities and if someone wants to participate they would have to pay. On the other hand, I don’t want to occur as a “sales person” I really provide something of value and want whoever I talk to see that and choose take advantage of it.

I have gotten a little off track from my original thought, but what I am clear about is that I have much to learn and that if I don’t tell anyone what I need I can never expect it to magically show up.